Yay, three hundredth post; I’m now in the top half of all bloggers, simply from the fact I’ve stuck at it for long enough to generate three hundred posts. Or more correctly, three hundred posts which aren’t simply a photo and a couple of captions. Okay, I might have just made that up, but as it feels true, it must be!
Yet there’s an obvious question which is so rarely asked: why the hell we do it. Or if it is asked, the answer is not really that honest. Both unconscious and conscious.
After all, it’s a lot more work than most non-bloggers realise.
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The first reason has to be a simple one; sheer egotism. That is; believing that I cover topics which are worth covering, and I do so in a manner which is (hopefully) both readable and vaguely authoritative and/or interesting. That I can do it better than the average person and so on.
Truth be told, I’d been producing ‘bloggable’ content for years before I finally produced my first true post. My ‘proto-posts’ had been on a few online forums, several of which I no longer frequent. I didn’t intend to do that; more that there were times in which I ended up producing said proto-posts – mainly when developing a new idea, setting out my stall and/or retorting to an alternative argument (In fact, a fair percentage of my non-review posts are forum retreads).
So, why didn’t I stick to that?
Firstly, online forums – like all social media – are ephemeral in nature. Not as pure ‘in the moment’ as say the Instragrams and FaceBooks of the world, but sometimes quite close. Depending on how well the forum is organised and indexed (both internally and externally), old ‘content’ may be effectively lost under the weight of newer stuff.
Then there’s the simple issue you have almost no control over the forum. You can be censored, banned or even nonpersoned, basically at a whim of the Admin gods – some of which can be petty arse-hats at times. Depending on how much of your output was there, this can be anywhere between ‘mildly annoying’ to ‘catastrophic’. Then there’s some deluded types who think the forum ‘owns’ all your content, simply because you put it there (and you should be ‘grateful’ for it being published there).
In fact, that’s what the ‘The Alexandrian’ and I have in common; we both are exiles from forum-land, finding in blogging a publishing medium which is less capricious and unstable.
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While that was the original reason, it’s highly unlikely I’d have continued this blog for this long and sure as hell not that many posts merely on the back of my rehomed existing content. Because almost nobody cared. In fact, it was only my first product reviews which even started to get a sniff of attention, and as of last month 95% of my views are for reviews, of which make up about 60% of my whole output post-wise and perhaps 40% of the output effort-wise.
Baldly put: reviews got me views, which gave me the motivation to continue writing.
Not that this was bad. I’d already started testing out some bars and so on, so formalising and publishing my conclusions wasn’t a complete jump. I’d already done a few posts about health/fitness too, so hardly a surprise topic-wise either. And frankly, I’d gotten rather pissed off with the general absence of actual honest reviews about products, or incomplete ones, or ones hosted in locations which were awful to search.
But this raises the question; if I’m doing it for attention, why do I continue doing posts like this one – I’d be better served time/effort-wise to ditch all this ‘heavy’ stuff and stick to reviews. In fact, I may be crippling any remote chance I have for making this thing pay by doing posts like this. To which I say; so be it.
For I do this not simply to scratch the ‘creative itch’, but the belief that some of these posts deserve to be created. Sometimes, it’s a topic which has a new slant. Other times, something which I feel should be simplified and brought out of the Ivory Tower for all to see. Generally speaking, if you see a non-review post like this, it means one thing – I’ve been unable to my satisfaction to find a source online to answer my question or issue, so I’ve had to provide one myself.
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This tendency is what Orwell called ‘the historical impulse’. After all, if I couldn’t easily find my answer using that big Ur-brain which is internet search engines, it suggests perhaps it’s not been done yet (or more correctly, has been done but I’m unable to find it for whatever reason).
What’s more, it combines neatly with my periodic ‘obsession questions’ – that once one has entered my brain, I won’t really rest until I get an answer. So basically, I’d have done most of that research anyway, and putting it all down in pixels and bytes helps me clear my mind and order the thoughts. I know this looks a bit narcissistic, but perhaps my musings might be of interest to others.
Yet… writers in general are narcissistic. It kinda goes with the territory. Writing (in all it’s forms) is the equivalent of you standing on a soapbox and proclaiming ‘look at me, I have something to tell you!’. Naturally, you have to believe there’s actual worth in your message, otherwise you’d not do it (whether you’re right or not is naturally a different question and to some extent subjective). Even the most humble leaver-of-comment on say, this blog generally follows this rule.
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However, I’ve still not really answered the question – mainly I’ve talked about so far is the reasons why I write, not why I blog.
The other main answer to this is pretty simple; what other options do I really have? If you want to get paying gigs, you need a portfolio, and in the absence of any ‘properly published’ works, this means a blog. And if you want to ‘go it alone’… well you need the blog. What else can I do? Make some ‘zines and show a) my crap graphics skills (behold, my E in GCSE Art!) and b) the fact nobody near here gives a flying about the contents. In this case, blogging allows me to reach potential readers to a level no other medium could. Like standing outside the local McD’s handing out tracts.
Social media isn’t an option. This is clear as soon as you consider the fact I’ve just passed the 1,000 word point and have no idea what platform would even accept this offering. Social media is not about content creation, it’s about giving a soapbox to for hawkers, shills and angry randos screaming at each other, all slathered with the slick grease of money and the splatterings of turds from the trolls, bots and Russian / Chinese agents continuing in their highly successful plan to get us in the West to destroy ourselves so they don’t have to. At best – and this is a debatable ‘best’ – they can serve as a method to plug your blog and perhaps occasionally make a contact / conversation worth having.
Plus, it fails the critical point at the top; it’s a forum which you don’t control. And with all the problems associated with it.
I suppose there’s the various video hosts, but I don’t produce content (as yet) which would warrant that. Basically, you’d simply get a long video of me, reading to the camera. Honestly, I think you can live without that view (in fact, might be best you don’t see that view). And when it comes down to it, the likes of YouTube and Co can as easily kick you off their platform as any of the socials do. What’s more, I think I can embed videos to my posts if needs be…
Which is the positive thing about blogging – as publishing mediums go, it’s pretty portable. As long as you keep backup of your content (and subscribers list), you could with relative ease re-create it with little difficulty. There’s no de facto monopoly blogging site, and you can increase your level of ‘creative freedom’ by getting independent hosting which for the basics seems to be around the price of perhaps two or three takeaways a year. Lastly, the levels of censorship seems to be much lower in blogland than elsewhere – at least for now (I personally suspect ‘They’ believe them to be all-but-dead, and what better way to hide in the obscurity of a body on life support?)
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Which is my ‘final thought’ of this post. That when it comes down to it, the idea of ‘free speech’ in general terms online does not exist in the ways we generally felt it did a decade ago. Perhaps it was simple naïveté; we felt that we could use tech to break the liver-spotted dead hand of the Murdochs of the world, to get away from the white-bread TV executives, cliquey print journalists and cringeworthy, out date ‘talent’. Unfortunately, we only managed to get away from Murdoch to end up being caught by Zuckerberg instead. Perhaps we should have seen that coming; after all, the ‘phases of development’ seen online follows perfectly the normal rules of capitalism. But that’s not the point I’m making today.
Anyway, the point which I am is that unless you’ve got enough outlay, the only place you really have any modicum of control/security over is in fact, a blog. Forums aren’t yours, social media clearly isn’t yours, comments on sites will only survive if allowed and content hosts like YouTube don’t really care about you unless you’re a whale of a creator. Blogs also allow you do reveal as little or as much as you desire about yourself – which is good, because I wouldn’t be so candid if had to sign my ‘real’ name. Or log in with a photo of my face.
And to be honest, I think my work would lose a bit of it’s bite if I had to.
As everything on this blog, merely my own thoughts and opinions. Part of my Essays series.